Procrastination of note

its 2:45am and iv just been doing nothing for the last few hours.. been online.. been wasting time chatting and idling and nothings. i have soooooooo much to do for school on Monday but its just not happening. i stay up late doing nothing then sleep til late in the morning :/ i have reading to do to get my assignments started but i cant get going. iv told myself since last week..that i was gonna get stuff done. i think its cos is alot to do my mind is overwhelmed. mayb im just lazy. last minutes have always worked for me.. and i guess im programmed into that mindset..so uncool cos i spend nights awake 'working' or trying to work without actually working or getting anything done.

this is what my desk looks like now.. :( see how none of the books are open.. damn i should get started.. lots to do!

wanna show you these other pictures too.. its a butterfly that was stuck inside on the sliding doors.. i took it onto my hand to let if free outside.. it sat still.. i wish my mind could sit still. its usually like a butterfly not wanting to rest. all over the place. maybe i should find myself suck on a sliding door then a helping hand will set me free? ok that makes no sense cos im sleepy. i may wake up tomorrow and come delete this post cos it makes no sense :/ but for now it has to do :) maybe i am stuck on a glass door i see where i want to be but cant get out.. hmm.. when will that hand of guidance take me out. maybe the hand is there but i dnt realise its helpful :/ and i just need to sit still for a while in order to see this? hmm.. maybe i am making sense.

here are the pictures :)

its 3:22am now.. did some more random stuff.. these pics took ages to load.. including error msg's :/ think its best i go nap.. or maybe i should just do reading til Fajr... then sleep.. im not tired.. anyhow.. il be off..